It's now common knowledge across my school at Knox Academy that I am moving to a new school, and whilst this is an extremely exciting moment in my life, it's also extremely sad for me.
I'm sad because I am saying goodbye to the school I've wanted to work at since I was thirteen or fourteen. I'm also very sad to be saying goodbye to an awesome group of staff who have become friends with me whilst I've been working here. And then the pupils.
This week has been particularly tough for me after seeing some of the amazing pupils I teach in tears or nearly in tears after finding out that I am leaving (I keep thinking back to when my teacher, Mrs Muir, left in Primary 3 and how sad I was, so I can relate to how it can be). The hardest thing about leaving Knox was leaving them, and I've actually been in tears each night this week thinking about leaving them.
When I first started at Knox, I'd planned to stay there for as long as I remained a teacher, but I'd promised myself that at the very least I'd be there till my current S4s left. Sadly, that hasn't really happened, and I'm sorry for letting them down.
People always say that you forget teachers over time, but the truth is, I have always remembered the teacher who inspired me most, Mr Laird, my History teacher in S1 and the person who inspired me most as a teacher. I'll never forget the last day I ever saw him - standing on the desk in tears, saying how much he's going to miss his class and the rest of the pupils that went to see him. I remember all my teachers who inspired me. You don't forget teachers. I always remember the wonderful kids who I've enjoyed teaching the most, too. I remember quite a lot of them from Newbattle, and I could name everyone in my registration class from there still, as they were a fantastic bunch. The same will be true of the kids at Knox.
But I need the new challenge, and my new school is the perfect place for that.
To quote Oasis:
Don't stop being happy
Don't stop your clapping
Don't stop your laughing
Take a piece of life, it's alright
To hold back the night
